Dream #255

You come up to me to show me something new, you get mad because I didn't notice, or that I wasn't as excited as you. You're annoyed that I had somewhere I had to go, and couldn't stay and talk to you... Don't you remember? you said you couldn't be in a relationship anymore, you left me.

You disapprove of how I deal with myself. The drugs to escape reality, the fights to release my anger. You're angry I don't need you anymore, that I don't need you to tell me to stop worrying so much.

Well, maybe I don't want you back. maybe I like it like this. Maybe the drugs help me escape this reality that neither of us ever liked, and the fights help those mental problems I refuse to acknowledge.

Maybe now, its you that needs me. and maybe, I wont be there.


All I can say is; you don't know what it's like to be stuck in my mind. everybody knows I don't belong here








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