Dream #255

You come up to me to show me something new, you get mad because I didn't notice, or that I wasn't as excited as you. You're annoyed that I had somewhere I had to go, and couldn't stay and talk to you... Don't you remember? you said you couldn't be in a relationship anymore, you left me.

You disapprove of how I deal with myself. The drugs to escape reality, the fights to release my anger. You're angry I don't need you anymore, that I don't need you to tell me to stop worrying so much.

Well, maybe I don't want you back. maybe I like it like this. Maybe the drugs help me escape this reality that neither of us ever liked, and the fights help those mental problems I refuse to acknowledge.

Maybe now, its you that needs me. and maybe, I wont be there.


All I can say is; you don't know what it's like to be stuck in my mind. everybody knows I don't belong here








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Dream #254

I am now a counselor for at risk teens, and under-privileged women and children. My life's companion, MME, and I, own a house together in Atlanta, and one in Amsterdam. We travel frequently between both cities, to see his family. I bring Esperanza with me. At two, she is already a genius. I am so thankful to have been able to adopt her as an infant! My yarn business is booming! We have been extremely blessed with each other. We are still madly in love. His career is also taking off now. Till next time...

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Dream #253

It's a wonderful feeling being able to look at my accounts and see that I'm selling at least ten books every day.

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Dream #252

I have finally graduated from University, I have overcome my mental health problems and my weight problem to live normally.





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Dream #251

I am sleeping well every night and waking up ready for the day. My excess weight is melting away, and my depression is a thing of the past. Life is joyous!

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Dream #250

I move and think freely. My consciousness is finding new and wonderful experiences and I embrace the random and whatever may come. All that is left is the now, not yesterday or the future, simply the moment I am in and I love every second.






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Dream #249

I am happy, I am full of energy, I am traveling around the world and loving every minute of it. I am at peace with the past and I am not worried about the future. I am free.






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